Monday, August 27, 2007

Dream Last Night

I always love it when I have dreams and I can remember most of the details within the dream after I wake up. Mostly the contents of the dream slip away as I slowly gain consciousness. But this one I had last night is as vivid as a real memory. And here it is.

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Me and about 10-15 friends are on a bus ride to a destination known to us. We know what the destination is but I'm the only one that has been there before. I describe this place to my friends and they look on in interest as I list all of it qualities. We are going there for a seminar. We want to learn about Yoga and mystic beliefs, and this seminar will enlighten us all.

As we arrive and get out of the bus, I realize we are in the Czech Republic, in Prague. I don't know what language my friends are speaking but I know I can understand them. It is night time and the building we have arrived at overlooks the old city and it looks beautiful from up there. All the centuries-old buildings are illuminated with various colours and it is something out of a dream. All my friends are ecstatic and note that we will all have a great time.

The actual building is square and painted white. Even though it is late evening, I can see it being lit by coloured lights and there are magnificent gardens surrounding it that we are currently walking through. All kinds of different flowers and plants are arranged together in intricate patterns. We descend some stairs and turn the corner and enter the building. There are lots of other students everywhere as well, chatting it up and busy running around finding their classrooms. It seems like this weekend there are students from all over the place wanting to learn about various subjects.

As we enter the classroom, the room is small and there are chairs arranged in a circle. The teacher introduces herself and we begin to learn. This is where I forget some details, but I just remember lots of 'red flags' going up as I learn this teaching. The next part I remember is I am sitting in another chair in the room. It's almost as if I dozed off and someone transported me to another chair. But as I'm waking up, I feel someone nudging my shoulder. It is Mariusz, a guy I used to live with a few years ago. He is a really spiritual guy, and always really gets into it in church services. Anyway, he hands me a 345mL bottle that says 'Jäger' on it. It take it from him and leave the classroom.

I turn left out of the classroom door and make my way out of the building. There are still throngs of students outside the classrooms being noisy and sociable. 'Shouldn't they be in their classrooms?', I wonder. One of the rooms I walk by, I peer inside and see mathematical formulas on the blackboard. 'Now there is a learning that is based on science and fundamental logic', I muse to myself. Who needs this hocus-pocus mystical learning, right?

The whole time I am walking I sip on my drink, dunking it back to get a good swig of it. The bottle never seems to go empty. It tastes like carbonated apple juice. I finally make it out of the building on the opposite side we entered. There are many smaller buildings on the property that I walk by. It is a busy place, many people walking about, and there are merchants trying to sell their goods to people. They are yelling out to everyone about their good deals, since it's almost closing time. As I'm walking I realize I am heading towards a large church.

As I enter the church I realize it is on top of a hill sloping down. So the main sanctuary goes along with the natural formation of the hill that I am on, descending down very steeply. It looks like one of my old lecture halls in Guelph university. Only the front podium is lit up. I walk slower and slower, so slow that people behind me have to pass me by. To my far left I see some students I used to go to Guelph with that I never assumed were Christians. 'Why are they here?', I wonder. But the closer I get to the altar, the more scared I get. I realize this isn't a place for me and I turn around and head back up. As I'm leaving, I think about two 'demons' that I have. The first one is Unbelief, and the second one is Lust. These are 2 things that I struggle with the most in my life, and even though I need them exorcised from me, I still leave the church with a guilty conscience.

As I'm heading back to my classroom, all the buildings I passed before are different. One is now an expensive restaurant, and I see all the tables set up with their fancy tableware and waiters rushing about. Rich patrons chat their idle chatter and drink their expensive wines. I realize that my drink is almost empty now. I quicken my step, hopefully I'm not missing too much of the class that I was supposed to be in. But as I get closer and closer to my classroom again, I become more and more afraid. What awaits me in the classroom? I can't just sneak in the back, because my chair is right in the front. I am so scared of the teacher making a comment that I wake up from my dream.

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That is the dream. I don't know what I means right now, I'm still trying to sort it out. And I think I forgot some details of it, which sucks. Hopefully one day humankind will invent devices that record our dreams, but until then, we will have to rely on memory alone.

I think a lot of things in the dream are manifestations of my real life. I was in Prague, and I have been questioning my Faith the last few years. I am leaning more towards Atheism as I listen to lecturers such as Richard Dawkins and Sam Harris. I have read websites that try to prove that Jesus never existed, particularly by Earl Doherty, who makes a good case. I am starting to lose my Faith very slowly, but I don't want to turn to mysticism either. That sort of thing is even more bogus than Christianity. Either way, I hate thinking that we all evolved, since our minds are so complex and full of imagination, everything in our universe has such perfect constants that allow us to live here, nature has such a divine aesthetic to it that I can't help but think there was a Creator that imagined it for His pleasure and to ours.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

End of the summer

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Well it has been a decent summer. It started in May when I quit my job (one of the stupidest things I have ever done, why didn't anyone try to stop me??), and it's just kind of slowing down now as we head into September. I know we still have some weeks left, but give me my moment here, ok? 'End of Summer' sounded like a good title that sort of jumps out at you amidst all the silly applications that facebook has been offering us recently.

So in May I went to an intense bible study thing at York University for about a week. We went thru the first half of the Gospel of Mark, doing a 'manuscript style' study that really opened up the whole world of Jesus life to me like I've never seen it before. The miracles of healing and everything that I have known Jesus for all my life sort of fell into second place after discovering what a great humanitarian he was and how radical his ideas and parables were. Although I didn't make any real new friends, it was nice to be in a place where people were focused on one thing and we had no distractions.

Moving back with the parents was a big nightmare for me though. After living semi-independently for about 2 and a half years, living with them was not fun. Everything came back, the having to do chores and getting nagged by mom almost every week got on my nerves. And I'm sure I got on my parents' nerves as well. My brother Tommy enjoyed the new 42" plasma HDTV with the xbox360 and wii, but I kept getting the vibes that I should move out of there.

I met some new people playing volleyball at Ash Bridges Bay. That was fun, and through it I got to go to one of the guy's cottage one weekend. What a great time! Although I didn't enjoy the fact that everyone now knows I snore like a MOTHER. Curse my bent nose of shame! It was up in Muskoka Lakes area, and I got to ride on a very sweet motor boat and jump off a boathouse into the water. The food was great too that we had. Some things going on that I didn't participate in but only observed included: drinking games, poker playing, swimming, wakeboarding. So I missed out on a lot of fun, but I'm a big BAWK BAK BAK BAK BAAAAAAAK, so no surprise there really.

In June I got to go to a dance club for the first time ever. I was a bit freaked out by the experience, and probably will need to get forced into one again. Lots of nice girls but once again just sort of danced on my own trying not to make body contact with anyone. The music for the most part was decent, not too much hip-hop and rap, but lots of remixed top-40s hits. I don't think I drank enough to have a good time though, because everyone I was with seemed to be enjoying themselves a lot. I guess I'm just a stick in the mud. But it's amazing how girls you see every day who look so plain almost look like models when they get all dressed up and make-up, why can't they look so good all the time? Does it take that much work to look beautiful? For me I just wake up and I look like a million bucks, as you can see in my current profile photo.

Then I went out for coffee with someone that shall remain nameless, but knows who they are. It was a giant hour-long awkward moment for me, and I hope it doesn't happen again. I wish I was more of a sociable person than I am, I hate the long pauses where nothing is said for what seems like minutes at a time. That just led me to believe the coffee is from the devil himself, and I will just drink tea for the rest of my days.

At the end of June my previous company that I quit from called me back to do work for them again that I hadn't finished when I was there (d'oh!). I reluctantly agreed and made the stupid decision to help them out. And that's where I am now, 1 month of doing hardly anything and wasting time with work that I thought I'd never do again. They pay me the same as before too, and to top it off I have to drive back and forth to Mississauga from Waterloo every day which adds to the annoyance. It's like I never quit, and my dad whom I'm supposed to be working for now instead is getting upset that I am back at my old company again. Why didn't they hire a replacement for me I shall never know... after all I gave them a 6-WEEK NOTICE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!! Maybe there's nobody stupid enough to do my job for such low pay.

My Europe trip was just so-so. My dad drove us around for like 2500 km all across Europe in 10 days. All I remember from the trip now is the boring driving bits. Even though it was nice to see the different landscapes and road signs, those got tired after about 2 hours. What else can be said than, don't go on vacation with an irate sibling and a father who is completely opposite from you in every possible way. 3 incompatible people does not a happy vacation make! Even though we all share some similarities, there are key differences that make us all annoyed with each other. I'm a big whiner and don't want to walk a lot, therefore hiking sucked when I was with them. My sister is very no-nonsense and just wants to see the sights and leave, while my dad wants to take it slow and go about things in a more relaxed style. Plus visiting his (our) relatives in Czech Republic was the most excruciating experience for her, since she understands none of the language and my dad would go on for hours speaking it with relatives I didn't even know existed. I understand it a bit, but not enough to really keep a decent conversation going. So I was always stuck in the middle.

This summer was also a pretty decent summer for movies. Although Spider-Man 3 and Pirates 3 were a bit disappointing, I loved Bournce Ultimatum, Knocked Up, and Superbad. Great movies that just made me fall in love with movies all over again. Simpsons was ok, and Ocean's 13 I didn't see. Transformers was just a big spectacle of computer graphics plus some good old fashioned charm, and the girl was pretty hot too (looked like a younger Jennifer Connoly). I saw Mr. Bean and that sucked hard, way too kiddy and not enough of the annoying Bean that pisses people off for me to like it.

So that was the summer pretty much in a nutshell. I'm sure I left some things out, but I don't want to bore people anymore. I applaud anyone that has read through this lengthy note, and I hope it doesn't get lost in the shuffle of application notices and advertisements have have recently clogged up our favourite addiction.

Peace out, and enjoy the rest of the summer everyone!

-Joramee

Friday, June 29, 2007

Europe Trip 2007

June 21-22: We left on the plane and got to Vienna in 9 hours or so. We got the rental car and visited the town of Mikulov before heading to my uncle's wedding hotel, the Hotel Moravia

June 23: This was the wedding of my Uncle Paul to our new Aunt Marcella. I gotta say she is the nicest girl I've ever seen him with and I hope it lasts!

June 24: Today we went to the most famous caves in Moravia, Punkva Caves. This is where a famous Abyss resides called the Macocha (=Step Mother in Czech). It looks nice but the picture my sister took sucks, sorry :-(

June 25: This was Prague Day. We visited the city and took lots of pictures. It was a cool city to visit, I recommend it to everyone.

June 26: This was Dresden day. We visited the museums there and saw Raffael's Cistine Madonna (the one with those little angels in the bottom).

June 27: Today we went to Karlovy Vary, the famous spa city of Czech. Some nice sights as always, the Europeans really know how to do fine architecture.

June 28: It was time to leave Czech Republic behind and go to Germany. We had lunch with dad's old college buddy and headed to the grandparents. We probably did something else today besides that but I've forgotten already :-(

June 29: We went to Stuttgart in the morning and to some relatives in the afternoon. Also saw my grandpa's gardens.

June 30: We headed down south-east to view the Neuschwanstein Castle and Hohenschwangau. At the end of the day we rested at a bed & breakfast in Berchtesgaden.

July 1: We went up to Hitler's old house, the Eagle's Nest, and saw a great view of some of the Alps. Then in the afternoon we visited the Salt Mines, which was pretty cool.

July 2: We took the long trip from Salzburg to Vienna. This took roughly 3 hours by car. By the end of this week my dad was tired from driving so many kms. The plane trip lasted long too, about 10 hours or so in total and by the time I got home I was dead tired.

hopefully I'll post more pictures of my trip once Anna lets me have them.

-j

Thursday, June 7, 2007

to Europe again...

Ah man.

I don't know what I was thinking paying over $1000 to go to Europe. But it's my Uncle's wedding and he's turning 50 the next day, so it's a special occasion. The last time I was in Germany I really screwed it up. I was there for 4 months and didn't even go travelling. I just sat glued to a computer screen all day and then went and hung out with my grandparents afterwards. It was the worst 4 months of my life and it was also the hottest summer Germany has seen in a long time, or the whole of Europe for that matter.

I got angrier and angrier, and wrote a blog every once in a while. I let some friends view it as well, and they wrote me words of encouragement from time to time. But I fear I went insane during that time, and I don't want to repeat it. This time I want to take pictures, make friends, enjoy life a bit more. I will be going with my sister Anna and my dad, so it will be an interesting mix.

Our trip will take us to Prague, Vienna, Dresden, Munich, and Stuttgart. It will be amazing landscapes and centuries old architecture, it's just so refreshing seeing such a rich culture after living in such a new country like Canada for a long time. It will also be nice to get away from the games and movies that I seem to be addicted to.

I was also made to practice some piano songs to play at the wedding. I haven't played piano in ages so I hope I will have enough time to practice and put out a half-decent performance. I definitely don't want to screw it up, even though it will only be about 40 people or so.

A bad thing happened though once I came back to Canada in September 2003, after my trip: I accidentally gave someone I met a link to my web space where I was complaining about my trip to Germany! SO I really got in trouble for that and he shared it with other friends I met and they kept bugging me about it on ICQ for a while after that. But I haven't spoken them in years since I gave up using ICQ. So it will be interesting to meet those people again, albeit briefly, to see what they have to say to me face-to-face.

Also I'd like everyone to get into a big circle, hold hands, and just pray for me. Do it now. Get up from whatever you are doing and just join hands. Pray to whichever god you pray to. Or if you're not religious look into your inner-self and pray to it. Just send me your good vibes... yes, I'm feeling them. Thank you, thank you.

I have finally gone mentally insane right now. Anyone know of any good Insane Assylums in the area? Drop me a line!

-jorameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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Saturday, May 26, 2007

LOST - Through the Looking Glass

Wow.

That's all I can say about this 2-hour long season finale. Definitely the best episode this season. Everything came together, there were massive twists, and I was left thinking about the episode for a long time. Even now! For those who haven't seen LOST yet, don't read on because there are spoilers coming up!

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This episode had it all: moments of great emotion, explosions, guns, character development, questions answered, new mysteries to solve, surprises, FLASH_FORWARDS!!

The only clue I had for Jack's flash-forward was that he was using a RAZR phone at one point, which wasn't out during the time of the crash or before. And who is in the casket? Why is Jack all depressed and drinking like his dad was? Is his dad still alive? Why did nobody come to this particular person's viewing? There's just so many questions now and I think it was bold of the producers to show us that at least two of the castaways made it back to civilization. It was unprecedented and just took a lot of balls to do it, so I applaud them for it.

I also love how the line between good guy/bad guy is blurred in this show. Now I'm not so sure if Ben is the enemy or not. He obviously knew that Naomi meant trouble, and so did Locke. I was almost yelling at the screen, Jack don't be so stubborn, just listen to your people for once! If John has a suspicion just listen to him!

I was a bit saddened to see Charlie kick the bucket, but who knows... they might bring him back somehow. His purpose was fulfilled though, and he made the sacrifice... but was it the correct thing to do? Jack in the future wants to go back to the island because he is tired of lying, about what? Did they have to cover something up when they were rescued?

ARRHGHGHHGHGH

I can't wait 3 more years for this show to end, I must have the answers NOW!!

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HA HA oh well, I guess I'll have to wait until February 2008 to find out what happens next, just like everyone else. I'm just glad they dug themselves out of a hole with bad stories and apparent filler episodes. I am definitely with this show for the long run, and all you out there who haven't seen it yet, WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR IT'S AWESOME!!

I have all the shows on DVD so drop me a line and I'll hook you up.

-j

Wednesday, September 17, 2003

Life is good once again... ?

Well yes and no.

It's a strange thing, really. I came back to Canada with a lot of fun things waiting for me... but my life is empty once again. I have it all, I am back in my comfortable setting, but I am still depressed. So it doesn't make sense... why was I depressed in Germany without my computer, and am still the same now that I am back to normal? The answer is not obvious to me at all. Everything is supposed to be better here... I love eating my bacon and eggs in the morning, or just downloading movies and not worry about an internet firewall blocking my every move. I prefer my mother's cooking to my grandmother's, although it's not much of an improvement. I've just gotten so used to it that it has become mundane and boring. I crave the excitement of being independent, and not having to worry about what my parents think.

I knew that when I came back life would be different, but not so soon... my parents are already talking about me having to get a car and find a job. That's because I only have 1 class in school which isn't even every week, so I sit at home a lot and carve a niche into my computer chair. I've started organizing all my movies and games into big black folders, and that takes up some time as well, as well as making an Excel list of every video I have. But the fact that my parents want me out soon is a scary thought... I don't like that Real Life Syndrome is catching up with me... that I'm getting fat from all this non-exercise when I've been depending on my fast metabolism until now. I hate growing old... I try to slow it down by buying lots of video games, but there is no joy in it for me anymore.

At school I am with a bunch of guys working for the Department of Agriculture Canada. We are working on interfacing an RF Heater with some form of controller in order to maintain its temperature and flow rate. That's the basic idea for the project, and we have to start working on it right away. But I'm still in my lazy summer mode and don't want to do any work yet. This week we will get security passes to the facility so that we can have access any time we want. It was funny showing the authority my papers because they are all German... everyone wonders why I haven't become a Canadian citizen yet after 21 years living here. I tell them it's laziness, but is it really that, or is there something else behind it?

Yeah there just might be something that is pulling me back over there. I am used to my life here, but all my relatives live over there. Sometimes I'm confused over why my parents decided to leave the country at all... we could have lived a nice life over there I think. Now I face the dilemma of being torn between two countries... and it really hurts me on the inside. Every day I walk around with an empty feeling inside of me, as if something I need desperately is missing. I have been so deep in my computer world that I haven't realized that there are people out there trying to 'interface' with me so to speak, to try and communicate with me and get to know me. I don't know why people care about me at all, I'm kind of a loser.

My attitude going to Germany was that I would talk to nobody, make no friends, make no business connections, work only the bare minumum at work, and just get out with no loose ends. But there is an invisible rope that was tied to me over there, and it is still around my waste and I can feel the tugging of it sometimes... I'm trying to get over it but no matter how much I try I still think about my time there. I remember all the good things... the bad things have been erased from my memory. I remember the nice people, the close relatives I haven't had contact with for years, the amazing landscape, the nice clean european cars, the beautiful architecture in the old parts of cities, the greatest train system in the world, the tasty bretzels (only in Schwabenland), the sweet smell of the Döner (which I never tasted), the funky Euro-Pop on the radio (of which I have downloaded many songs and videos in the last couple of weeks), the strange 220V plugs with the humongous prongs, the cool currency EUROS, the interesting dialects of German heard everywhere, and yes I even miss the cigarette vending machines of all things. It's not fair... no matter how much I try to forget about it, I still remember them and I hear that little voice that beckons me to come back. HOW DID THIS HAPPEN? HOW DID I GET THE GERMANY VIRUS?

Anyway, now that I am stuck between two great countries, it's hard for me to decide where I want my life to go. Something that would really pull me back for good would naturally be a nice girl, but unfortunately nothing in that area happened over there. Strike 1. I screwed up at my job and didn't try hard, so they won't want me back. Strike 2. The German road system scares the living daylights out of me. Strike 3. So you see, I'm not cut out to be there... it is not my place. And no country is perfect and everyone has its own problems. I might as well deal with the problems here around me than over there. That empty space in my life will get filled up soon enough, it's just taking its sweet time, that's all. I just have to be patient and keep living my life the way I'm used to.

I think I will leave this journal up for all to see it. I know by mistake I accidentally told somebody from Germany about it, and he told one person and then he told the next, so in a chain reaction everyone at least from the youth group at the church there knows about this site. I had written some stuff here before about how good the girls looked and then erased it after, because I was too embarassed to leave it up there. It was written in the wrong frame of mind anyway, so it's better not to be left there. But I will probably not add any more information after today. I will continue to write a journal though as gay as it sounds, because it helps me sort out my thoughts and is just something cool to do to spend the time.

The other day I looked at the journal I had started when I was going out with a girl, and it was neat to see what I was thinking back then in 1998-1999. But that was all written by hand, not over the internet for the public to see. I might make a new website though, I have plenty of time and I finally have a little drive to do it... although ultimately I have no motivation for life. The weird bumps on my neck are still there but I am too afraid to tell anyone about it, but as long as I don't experience pain everything's ok. Now that I have a gameboy advance SP I play games on the way too... I was thinking of buying a notebook computer but some friends told me that was a stupid thing to do, so I'll just buy a regular desktop PC worth around $2000. That will make me happier I think...

So that was the last 4 and a bit months of my summer in Germany. It was good and bad, that's what I tell people. But it's time to move on and open up a new leaf in my book, because I can't stand it anymore with my old routines... it's almost as if I am moving backwards in life, always going back and reminiscing the good old days. I had been stubborn before and not wanted a girlfriend, but now more than ever I really feel that is what I'm missing. But the most important thing is my walk with God... I have neglected that portion of my life in a very big way. My Bible sits dust-covered under my bed, just begging to be opened. Perhaps I shall delve into it again. Yes I am a Christian, or at least I'm supposed to be one. I haven't exactly lived the perfect example, but I know what's right and wrong, and being a fence sitter isn't going to get me anywhere. I know The Truth, but I have never embraced it.

So long, farewell, aufwiedersehen, goodnight.

-j

Sunday, September 7, 2003

I'M BACK IN CANADA!!!

Wow that was quite a ride. 4 months alone (almost) in the strangest, most wonderful land I have ever experienced. As I look back at my previous entries, I am a little worried about how strong I expressed myself in various instances. But I think it's wrong to just go back and start editing and sensoring everything. In real life you can't change the past, so I will leave it the way it is. I did change some stuff though, here and there, usually to protect people's identities or to soften up some harsh criticism. I have no idea if I will continue this journal now that I am back in my domain (by the computer, with games and videos to keep me busy), but it all depends on my free time (which as it turns out I have a lot of this semester), or my general passion for it.

Well the last couple of weeks in Germany were actually pretty good. I was going to go visit that family again, but I was too afraid to set up a train ride to go there and so forth. I hate how I am such a scared little person, afraid of making steps forward in life. I am happy in my comfort zone and never venture forth into the unknown. That is why I'm afraid I will probably never get a girl, because I will never even have the courage to ask her out! Yeah that is pretty sad indeed... some say my immersion into the computer culture has destroyed me as a living functioning human being. I hope that is not the case, because I would hate to let go of this little 'hobby' of mine.

I finished my work without a hitch, saying goodbye to everyone in my section and so forth. That was pretty uneventful to say the least, some workers didn't even know it was my last day! That's how separated I was from the other employees during my work term there. I will probably never get hired by them again, but all is my fault for sure. I'm just a little man afraid of communicating via voice with people. Scary fact.

So I basically sat around doing nothing the second last weekend in Germany. I did take the train all the way to the Stuttgart Airport though, that was a bit of an event. The Stuttgart Airport is really neatly laid out in several levels, sort of like concentric circles if you view it from the top. It has a very nice design and is also very small. I had to pay 2 Euros to go onto the observation deck, which I thought was rather appalling. And once I was there, 2 meter high railing that looks pretty much like a jail cell obstructed my view of the planes. But I guess they gotta be careful that nobody falls down from there, so that kind of precaution is necessary. Going home I witnessed a funny scene in the S-Bahn: a lady with a walker came into the train and wanted to sit down. So the gentleman sitting in the seat next to the door made room for her. But it turns out he made room for her on the wrong seat, because she couldn't set her walker in the right position! So she started cursing and complaining really loudly and everyone looked towards the scene to see what was happening. Eventually the man was fed up with her and went to sit in a different area! A girl sitting in front of me started to crack up, and I almost laughed too at the humourous situation unfolding before me. The icing on the cake though came when she wanted to get out... the man actually got up off his seat and opened up the door for her! I couldn't believe it, this guy who had been totally razzed by the lady turned the other cheek and gave helpfulness in return for rudeness. So the lady suddenly changed her attitude and made some friendly chit-chat with him while he helped her outside the train. It was a very interesting comedy routine for me.

So now comes all the good stuff. On Tuesday, right before lunchtime, me and my grandparents headed out to the waiting bus that would take us to the camp. It was a sad time for us when we said our goodbyes, because I had the feeling I would never see them again. They are already well over their 70s, and it's a good chance I will see them the next time in another place besides this earth. My gramma especially had been really nice to me those 4 months, and I was glad she washed my clothes and made me dinner every day. Although I didn't like her cooking especially, I got used to it and even liked some of the stuff. That day I also had my last German Pretzel, with butter smeared in the inside... mmmmmmm I can taste it right now how good it was. Just one of the many things I will miss from Germany, the Schwäbisch Bretzel.

The Freizeit (camp in German) is located in Bad Endbach, a little town about 30km from Marburg, which in turn is about 100km away from Frankfurt. It is a nice little place where you can relax and enjoy your time there. Basically I paid around 200 Euro for about a week, which includes food and bedding and so forth. There are lots of nice places to take hikes and the actual house has a volleyball court outside, along with some hilarious copies of basketball nets that look nothing like real North American ones. When we got there we bumped the ball around without the net. But I am getting ahead of myself here.

Although the church that I attended was boring for me, this place was always interesting every day. I thought I would hate the camp but I really liked it, and it was a nice conclusion to my rather disappointing visit to Deutschland. I actually found out a lot about myself and got to know some of the young people there and their stories. It turns out the church services are boring because all the elders are too bent on their traditionalistic ways, but the younger generation that will lead the church eventually are completely cool. They have a vision to break down the rituals and laws set by the older generation, which is very promising. Although they are really good Christians, they want to move forward and let go of some of the old ways; for example: the girls are expected to wear a head shawl when they pray, wear long skirts all the time, keep their hair at least past shoulder length in a braid or pony tail (no flowing hair that's a no-no) and wear no make-up or jewelry!! That's insane I think, and thank goodness none of the girls were too bent on those rules when I was there. But they didn't go completely opposite by wearing piercings everywhere or wearing tight revealing clothes or anything.

The entire youth group was actually really cool. They seemed to get along really well and they always did activities at night when I was trying to sleep. I would always go to sleep at 9:00pm sharp, and they would come back around midnight to 1:00am and wake me up! So eventually I just gave up and stayed awake listening to loud music while I waited for them to get back. I was in a room with 3 other guys, like any typical camp girls and guys are separated which makes sense of course. Anyway the one guy let me use his laptop and play games on it, that was nice of him, and his brother helped me out with the German train system and set up my complete train route and connections so I could get to the airport! So they are a really nice bunch of people and I always felt good and accepted amongst them... the last day I was actually forced to come see what they did at nights, and we played some games where I had to act out a scene in pantomime where someone has to guess what I'm trying to do. That was fun for me, and once they saw I did some funny acting they kept asking me to perform for them! Eventually I got tired of that though, and was totally drained out at the end. When I left the room where they had met, I put on my PJs and wanted to go to sleep. But they surprised me by showing up outside my bedroom door and personally saying goodbye to me every one of them. They even gave me a goodbye card because I was leaving early in the morning the next day... it was happy times for me, and I *almost* forgot all the pain and suffering I had gone through this summer.

The older ones in the youth even did some presentations during our evening services, which were always interesting to see. They were pretty much based on the theme of how amazing God has created the animals of the earth... one particular 2-part presentation talked about the box jellyfish from Australia and how a guy had been killed by one and come back to life! No joke! His name is Ian McCormack. We watched a video of his testimony (he is a Kiwi, so I understood what he was saying, and the translator in the video actually mistranslated some things) of how he died from the jellyfish stings and saw hell and heaven and then came back! It was pretty bizarre, but I believe it is true because of how sincere he gave his personal story, and how he came to Christ after he was brought back to life.

As for the dreaded sports, they ended up being not too bad. Volleyball on hard asphalt was the main sport played, and even I can play that to some degree. So it was not bad. Other events we did together was taking a trip to Marburg and climbing to the castle there on top of the hill... hundreds upon hundreds of steep steps with no elevator in sight! I wish I had pictures, oh well... maybe next time eh.

The church services in the mornings were interesting too. There was a pastor there from Slovakia named Alexander Barkóci that needed to be translated while he preached, and he talked about things like driving demons out of people in the name of Jesus, which is always interesting to hear. He spoke on the theme of putting on the Armour of God, from the 6th chapter of Ephesians. And lo and behold, none of the services were boring for me! And since I understand some Czech, which is the sister language to Slovakian, I even understood some of the things he said right when he said them without having to wait for the translation. His family was there with him too, and his oldest son especially, he was like a prodigy and could play the piano by ear completely. Some girls from the youth performed a small ensemble piece with him, playing their flutes and violins and guitar, it sounded pretty sweet.

As a whole church community (including the middle-aged parents and the older folks as well), we didn't do that many things together. The only one I can remember is taking a walk on an old railroad line that included marching through a 700m long tunnel completely in the dark. The good news about the whole camp experience is that is was captured by several digital cameras, and eventually I might even post some pics here if they send me the picture compilation CD. Yeah so all in all, the camp was one of the many highlights of my time in Germany, and I will miss the youth from there especially all the pretty girls, but my place is here in Canada and I gotta do what I can with what I got here. Yes there are nice babes in my area too, but I will always compare them to those German gals. Heh heh I am so pathetic, I'm trying very hard NOT to come across like a perverted old man when I say these things, but I can assure you that I am completely pure in mind about this matter, so think what you will, Jesus knows my true thoughts. I almost cried when I had to say goodbye to all of them.

The last day in Germany was interesting for me, because I had to take a train (InterCity) for the first time and it was LATE by 10 minutes!! The whole time I was on it I was shaking all afraid that I would miss my connection to the Frankfurt Airport, because this particular train only went to the main Station instead of the airport. I accidentally sat in the SMOKING car of the train, but since I had my suitcase and bags and I was tired, I didn't bother changing cars. I endured the clouds of smoke with much determination. Oh yeah an interesting thing about Germany: lots of people actually ROLL THEIR OWN CIGARETTES!! It's funny to observe them doing this, it almost looks illegal to me but it's probably not. Anyway the train was a nice smooth ride, better than the regular trains, I could barely hear the wheels grinding on the track. There are different levels of trains, this one wasn't even the best one. The best train is the ICE(InterCityExpress), which goes really fast up to 250km/h I think. I never got to ride one of those but maybe next time... they also look really sexy, especially the new aerodynamic model ICE-3, I have never seen such a nice design for a train, not even the ones from Japan. So I arrived late in the main station and didn't even get to look around, I had to RUN with a heavy suitcase past 6 tracks, and when I got there one of the train personel said no worries, they are not leaving yet! So all that running for nothing. When I got on the train I discovered I was in the car with reserved seating, so I just went to one of the doors and stood there with my baggage for about 10 minutes to the airport station. At the airport I headed towards Terminal 1, being stupid and not taking one of those luggage waggons. It was a long walk indeed, and I had to stop several times to collect myself... not only was my bag-suitcase-thingy-hybrid
ripped in one area, one of the wheels was busted and it was exteremly awkward to pull it along. My flight ticket said that Air Transat was in Terminal 1, but it turns out it was in Terminal 2!!! So I had to take an airport shuttel to that terminal. Once I got there I had to walk all the way to the other end of it to get to the check-in area, only to have to wait behind about 30 people or so. That took a good hour checking in the baggage. But it was nice hearing people speak English again, at least the ones standing in line. At the Frankfurt airport they actually check your luggage for illegal materials right in front of you... I got to see the monitor and was amazed how sophisticated the x-ray machine was, it could see everything!! As I waited for my plane to board, I went to a German McDonalds for the FIRST TIME!! Yes I had to do that at least once. McDonalds' current slogan in Germany is 'Ich Liebe Es' (I love it). The menu is based upon the American one I think, so there was no Big Xtra (my fave) in sight. Therefore I picked what looked the closest, a burger called the 'Hamburger Royal TS'. It tasted close enough, but I didn't like the fries too much. After that I found a Samsung Internet Station (free, for reasons following), and checked out all the emulation news I had missed out on. As it turned out, not much... MAME v. 0.73b had been released, other than that nothing. I tried to send an email to my brother via Hotmail, but it was strange: the mouse pointer periodically became an hourglass while I was typing... it was almost as if I was being spied by the STASI or something, making sure I wasn't writing some bad stuff!! And the A and P keys didn't work to well, along with the spacebar, so it took a good 15 minutes to write a short 1-paragraph message! Then after my fun I headed thru customs and waited for the plane boarding to begin.

The plane flight was pretty uneventful. No delays, no turbulence, smooth sailing through the clouds. The inflight food looked terrible so I always refused it when they tried to force it upon me. Only at the end I took some NASTY pretzels that stuck in my teeth, and a mint and water on the rocks. Inflight movies were Bringing Down the House (which sucked really bad unfortunately), The Italian Job (which I slept through, unfortunately, because I was dead tired at that point), and get this: FINDING NEMO!!! As soon as the PIXAR logo showed up I frantically unravelled my headphones and was actually expecting an old classic, not this completely new film. I liked the film, but I felt I lost something from it because it was in full-screen format presented on a wide screen, so major stretchy issues, and the sound was mono (booo), and the colours washed-up, and I had to stretch my neck to see it because of bad line of vision. So I will see the DivX of it which my sister thankfully downloaded while I was away. Our intermediate stop was in Halifax, and more than half the people left. That was cool because we could all choose window seats, and I picked the seat right by the left wing emergency exit. We were flying an Airbus A310 I think, with a 3-3-3 seat configuration. This family of three actually wanted to sit where I was, but the girl was too young to sit there because that particular area has huge leg room because the door is between the seats. It was amazing seeing all the cloud formations from above, and it took F-O-R-E-V-E-R to get to Toronto. It seriously seemed to take forever, I was so anxious to get home. Another highlight from the flight was catching a nice long glimps of the NIAGARA FALLS, which I recognized almost immediatelly. They looked so small and unsignificant from roughly 20,000 feet in the air. Especially the American side, heh heh (burn). I had to fill out some customs stuff on the plane, typical Canadian Protocol BS, that was not fun. "What is the net worth of items brought in from international..." BLA BLA SARS BLA ETC. I also had to wait for my busted up bag-suitcase for almost an hour because of an unexplainable delay, and then I walked out... walked out into my country, the place I call home.

Once I got home I finally got to see all the presents I had ordered for myself while in Germany... lots of games, dvds, game books, Lego, etc. And yes it was a tearful reunion with my PC. Tearful because she was hurt by nasty worms and virii, something which I got to fixing straight away. Now she is back in nice running condition, it's just my internet was supposed to have been upgraded over the summer and it is still the same speed!! So I gotta deal with that issue still. Other than that, I am happy to be back in familiar territory, and if I could do it all again? I would have bought a digital camera, maybe at least talk to one nice girl, and maybe get out more among people instead of sitting at home doing nothing..

whew that was long. I should get a t-shirt that says "I SURVIVED DEUTSCHLAND"

Well that's all for now.

-joRAM